This morning i woke up and made a coffee... latte to be exact. whole milk... strong espresso. made on the coffee machine that matty bought me for my birthday. ... and its good. nice and hot. no sugar. ahhhhh.
i was thinking this morning about trusting God. After something that we don't understand happens and we choose to trust God, that seems almost to be the intelligent option. When we are completely out of control of our circumstance, when we love God, who else would we trust. - granted that sometimes we may float in the land of 'what just happened' before we get to that conclusion - Anyways, trusting God for the believer should be the natural option after tragedy or unexpected circumstance, but i'm finding that the true trusting is growing as the road that i'm on lengthens. I think part of me was trusting God and waiting for him to put us back on the track that i thought we were on... kind of a 'fix it' mentality if that makes sense. I'm learning that trusting Him means that we trust His plan, not that we had and 'oops' my life isn't what i thought it would be moment and now i'm waiting for you to put me back on my plan for my life, but abandonment to His plan... no matter the waiting... no matter what His timing is... and trusting Him all the way through it.
C.S. Lewis writes " When i lay these questions before God i get no answer. But a rather special sort of 'no answer'. It is not the locked door. It is more like a silent, certainly not uncompassionate, gaze. As thought He shook His head not in refusal but in waiving the question. Like, 'Peace, Child; you don't understand." - from A Grief Observed -
He does understand. So i can drink my coffee, get ready for the day... set out trusting him from the sunrise to the sunset and everywhere in between. ...