Monday, November 30, 2009

the Spirit hovers.

on this beautiful monday morning i have been arrested by hope, once again. As i flipped open the thin almost transparent paper of my leather bound bible, i couldn't even make it past the first couple verses-of the first chapter-of the first book. Something in my heart prompted me as i opened the Book of books, to take the title page-index page-so on page by page until i ended up at Genesis 1:1 and began reading. When i say it arrested me, i mean in that way that my whole being was absolutely overtaken by the beauty of His word for us. Weeping in my large white arm chair i have realised once again this morning the hope He extends to each of us.

i'll begin with you were i started not much earlier this day:

Genesis 1:1-2
'The Beginning"

"In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Now the earth was formless & empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep & the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters."

I don't know how to convey what God did in my heart, to translate it off the pages of my journal to this post:: so i'm going to give you the words straight off the page of my journal:: please understand that i don't ever do this lightly... as the words that happen in the pages of my journal are the closest parts of my heart:: I hope that it somehow reaches you the way He reached me this morning::

::::::::::God-the absolute beauty that there was nothing, and you were there, in an earth that was unformed : barren : desolate : empty : Your beautiful Spirit was hovering ... You were THERE my beautiful God... out of nothing you created. I look at the beauty of this earth - every flower and tree, the vast expanse of the ocean and I am so overwhelmed that in Your glorious & wonderful imagination You formed all that i see. My whole being springs to joy & life; knowing that even in the seemingly barreness of my womb Your Spirit is hovering_waiting_to create... You are imagining the child that is to come, with Your wild and beautiful imagination, You ARE creating_TRULY_You make the barren woman sing_You bring Life_and healing.:::::::::::::::

Something about this verse - i just saw the pieces of my soul - where i am waiting for all these dreams - that even where it seems empty and unformed and just a dream - that the Spirit is hovering... creating... and the expanse of what He can create is ENDLESS... BOUNDLESS...

and i feel He is saying to us this morning:::

I AM HOVERING ...master of a craft .. an artist with brush in hand ... dreaming up the glorious thing(s) that i am about to create... don't underestimate that I know no bounds...

well:: baby is awake :: i can hear little squeals of delight coming from the nursery so i'm off :-)

love xx jilly

Friday, November 27, 2009

.well hello old friends. its been to long.

well... in light of the fact that it has been about a bazzzzilllliooonnnn years since i have posted anything on this blog... yeah, well its about time. I suppose that i just needed to "move on" in the sense that i just had to keep myself from dwelling and just get on with living and loving God and life and everything that is amazing about the world that God has put me in. Don't get me wrong, pretty much every day is filled with thoughts of our precious Max... actually i've had dreams, and call me crazy, but full on moments where the grace of God gave me special well, moments, with my Max... so he has NEVER been even close to being far from thought... but hopefully you know what i mean by getting on with life. anyhow. that said, its been in my heart to start up a bit of a blog about the journey. especially considering the current times... and our growing family...
please excuse the fact that i hardly ever capitalize anything, as well as frequently jump from aussie to american english. it, in fact, is the nature of the fact that i grew up american and now am officially a permanent resident of australia. *but will forever be an american at heart* sigh*i love america*
to give an update on the past months, well, i'll just do my best ! We are in fact parents. i know right... WHOA! So let me explain.. huey: is 6 months old and is our handsome golden retriever. He gives the most slobbery kisses in the world. i love him xx

now our second child will need a little explaining.. but i can't actually explain anything. so bear with me. We had it on our hearts to become foster carers. So after a lot of prayer, meetings, courses, and assesments, we were approved as short term carers... phew. Then one day, at 3pm, we got a call from the agency, and they dropped off the most beautiful/stunning/sweet/baby bundle i have ever seen at our door at 5pm. so INSTANT mommyhood. Now... yes i was unbelievably overwhelmed with love and excitement for this precious girl. and also, as i closed the door, overwhelmed with and OHMYGOSH moment... as in... i have never been a mommy at home before...with a baby... all by myself... i mean... i've been a nanny... i know the basics... but OHMYGOSH... i'm totally in charge... WHOA! Our princess was 11weeks old when she came and now shes just turning 6mths. We are in heaven. I have no idea how long we will have her...who knows... ? God knows. And she has an amazing Father in heaven that knows exactly what she needs and when. So we are trusting... trusting God with our hearts as we love unconditionally, and trusting him with this beautiful girl who's in our lives. *no pics allowed at this point* :) although i would LOVE to show you how absolutely beautiful she is!!

Its a beautiful place to be. just trusting. i'm sensing this is a theme. God is really teaching us thoroughly. and i'm SO glad. so. thats all for now. just an update. love x jilly