Wednesday, July 30, 2008

the calm of the next

the amazing thing about having a morning thats hard one day... is knowing that God's mercies are new every morning. have all of my problems been solved or prayers been answered?? no... not yet anyways... BUT... this morning i woke up (ahem... well... i'll just take a side bar and go into a bit more detail... i woke up around now because matty unplugged my phone last night to plug in the heater, i didn't know, my phone died, no alarm, missed a date i had with a friend this morning...and now my phone isn't working for some reason... side bar finished) so ... this morning i woke up late, and just felt peace. even in the middle of all that (waking up late etc etc) Not sad about max, anxious about anything... just peace. i actually slept most of the night, and, felt like i had. i opened up my bible and read this verse:: psalm 62:1 :: my soul finds rest in God alone; He alone is my rock and my salvation; He is my fortress and i will never be shaken. 62:6-8:: (he repeats) Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him, He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress , i will not be shaken. my salvation and my honor depend on God; He is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in HIM at all times, o people; pour out your hearts to him for God is our refuge."

so here's to a day of resting in God. soul, spirit and all. 


Luís said...

Hey Jill... Good´s pecase is something realy amazing. Sometimes i´m so full of problems and decisions to make and suddenly this amazing peace fills up my heart.

My name´s Luis and i´m from Brazil and i´ve been very blessed trough the song DESERT SONG.

Your brother in Christ.

Kessia said...

Philippians 4:4-7 says:

4Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus

You´ve been faithful to Him dear sister.. and He´s answering you with His peace...

everything will be alright..

your blog is such a blessing for me...

have a nice weekend!


Faye said...

Hey Jill,
yesterday I was looking through some hillsong stuff on youtube and so i got to know your story.
When I watched the introduction of the desert song, it was just so, mmh, indescribable I would say. It was just amazing hearing you saying that after all that happened and in all that brokeness, God is still God and He sits on the throne in heaven.
I´m a midwife here in Germany and I saw babys dieing now and then. And i saw the huge grief of the parents. But when I looked at these little angles, so little and innocent, I always thought, they are home. They are with god in heaven, playing with Jesus and talking to him.And one day we´ll be there too. And then you´ll see your little baby max again.
Many times in my life I also think: Why, god? Why me? And then I think of the song In christ alone. Do you know that song? In the last verse it says:
No guilt in life, no fear in death-
This is the power of Christ in me.
FROM LIFE´S FIRST CRY TO FINAL BREATH, Jesus commands my destiny.
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand!
'Till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.

I just love this song.
So, I know my entry was pretty long but I just wanted to tell you this.
And I would really love to here from you!

In Christ alone!


Midgetness said...

hey jill< well i just read about your baby. i just want to tell you no if your little boy is with you or in heaven just remember that he will always stay and never leave a very special place. your heart. well my aunt was pregnant of twins which came early and she lost the lil girl and the boy well lived for about 5 minute. she knows exactly what your feeling. she cries and feels empty sometimes. but we remind her that those precious babies of hers are somewhere better than the real world.there in eternity and im telling you not to cry but to thank god there somewhere better. and when its your time to go to eternity. you will see your precious MAX up there as happy as anyone can be!!



Midgetness said...

hey jill, i just read about max right now. i just want to tell you that hes in a great place. and he loving it.

well my aunt was pregnant of twins and came early. the lil girl past right when she came out and the lil boy lived for about 5 minutes and past. she cries when she feels that empty spot . but we reminder her that thier in eternity and will always be happy. the same i tell you jill god is holding that MAX of yours and telling him that his parents are going to come here as well to meet thier beautiful miracle. so when you cry and feel hurt just remember that max is gonna be in heaven dreaming of his mother and how a beautiful voice god has given to her to use to reach him!

gob bless you jill!!


alihsee said...

I have been reading your story - you are such an encouragement. Thank you.