Wednesday, August 11, 2010

the biggest little treasure.

meet our little girl.
She even waves. Its like southern hospitality is woven into her involuntarily!

She is the biggest little treasure. I can't believe that after such a long wait for her.. so many prayers... tears... hopes... she is FINALLY in my tummy growing and thriving... THANK YOU JESUS!

Its always easier to sit on this side of the journey and talk about how Gods timing is perfect and how you can all of the sudden see how He had a plan and purpose for all the waiting. To that I would say, well, of course it feels better with the joy of my heart in my womb... but I don't understand the waiting any more than I did before. I am, however, just as sure now as ever, if not more, certain that God has perfect timing... and whatever His reason or plan might be... I am for it... on board... will choose to lay my life and dreams down... for His cause and His purpose. Is that the easy choice?... absolutely not... but its the one that leaves me with joy in my heart and hope in my hands... no matter what He has granted so far.
That is what I have resolved.

A couple weeks ago I went in for an ultrasound (I have these more frequently than normal as I am 'classified' now as high risk pregnancy).. these are for the purpose of making sure its all going the right way etc etc... we walked in thinking it was going to be fine as usual. We have walked in to this pregnancy full of faith for a healthy baby... aware of, but not dwelling, or expecting complications. We left that ultrasound with heart stopping news. There was a problem with an area of the ultrasound requiring that I have surgery as soon as possible to combat my body from continuing down the road it seemingly was on to another premature labour.
Talk about shock.
I'm sitting there thinking... this can't be happening again... God, WHERE ARE YOU???
Is my little girl going to be ok... i can't believe i thought this was all going to be normal...
(I'm just being brutally honest here). I felt like someone shot me in the chest.

These are all normal reactions. The problem becomes letting these thoughts take you captive. The solution... TAKING these thoughts captive.

2 Corinthians 10:3-5
For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. 4The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. 5We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.


SO... as the enemy began his attack on my heart... Gracious Jesus stepped in with truth that is sewn in to the fabric of who I am... and truth began spilling on every doubt.

I.E. ::: This is not history repeating itself. God IS doing a new thing. Where is God?... RIGHT HERE... in this room with me...in my heart... in my everything...He IS in control... He IS right now knitting our little girl together in my womb part by part, every piece of who she is... and it is going to be OK.

I made a choice right then to not entertain thoughts that are contrary to what God says about my situation. He is mighty and great... and has us right in the palm of His hand. That is always the safest place to be.

{it's also helping to have things like this on my wall}
So now, surgery complete... home staying off my feet... and lots of time on my hands... I've been able to think about PLENTY. One thing I know is whatever God does in these next months... I am going to trust Him. I'm believing completely and am full of faith for a perfectly healthy baby... born at just the right time. I have also resolved that whatever happens... I will be ok with it. I don't claim to know what God is doing... I just know that everything is going to be ok... whatever everything ends up looking like... its going to be ok. God will never be out of control of what is happening... and His ways will always be higher than mine... His thoughts higher than mine....and no matter what, I won't stop praising Him... and let me tell you... when this baby girl is in my arms for the first time... healthy and perfect... you might here the celebrations of heaven and earth in that room from where your reading this. It is going to be a HAPPY day... :)

I would ask you to pray for our little girl as she keeps growing... there's quite a few milestones for us to pass in the coming months before she arrives... and prayer changes things... so we would love yours. I'll be 22 weeks on Saturday praise God... and plenty more of those week celebrations to come!

In other news... my husband is amazing and becoming quite the cook.. laundry man... general house duties man... grocery shopper and plenty more{AND} I have the best friends in the world. They frequently pop by with meals... groceries... to clean my house... bring flowers...take our dog for a walk...& the list goes on and on. Isn't it amazing how the family of God shines so beautiful in these moments. There are SO many beautiful things about where we are at this very moment... and to many things to count that I'm praising God for.

xxxxx

jill

OH. and thought i'd throw in these photos for a little glimpse at my amazing hubs coping with hospital stay life.... glad we weren't there long... ha!

{he can sleep anywhere}
{they tagged me}
{beautiful flowers from my mom and dad}
{sleeping arrangements for the night}




27 comments:

Wendy Delfosse said...

Aw, Jilly. Praying for your precious baby girl.

Your attitude is absolutely incredible. When I grow up I wanna be more like you. Seriously... I admire the way you live out the faith, girl. His work in you is so obvious.

atrevitt said...

Jilly I can see that beautiful little girl in your arms.. Not one day too soon not one day too late x

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sj. said...

you are amazing.
sending lots of prayers your way.
much loves. xoxo

owlette ♥ said...

You don't know me but I've "followed" you since I heard your story which your shared for the "Desert Song". I saw you worshipping one night of Hillsong Conference this year and thought I saw a baby bump and thanked God for his faithfulness from my delegate seat. On the second night of conference I myself went into labour and have since been blessed with a beautiful daughter.

I'm so excited to see how God is working through the lives of women today and how He's weaving such an amazing story of His love and faithfulness in our lives, particularly in the area of pregnancy and motherhood and family.

I have my own story to share, which I will blog about in the near future. Until then, here's another amazing story God is writing: http://kellyneedham.wordpress.com/

Lots of love,
Daniela xoxo

merel.vhg said...

"truth began spilling on every doubt"... wow i love that.
also you saying that everything is going to be ok whatever everything ends up looking like, that's TRUST.

you've had so much happen in your life these last months! i hope these months of rest will give you some real rest :)
i'll be praying for your little babe, and for a smooth pregnancy and delivery.

merel.vhg said...

P.s. LOVE that your bub is waving at you, ahh so cute.
And totally random but i'm jealous of your husband being able to sleep anywhere, I wish I could but I need my own bed & pillow etc, whaha...

Them Chandlers said...

Praying!!

sparklejensen said...

I am so happy for you guys. Thanks for sharing. I will be praying for you all along the way. x

Jason and Kristin said...

We are praying for you Jill! God has a wonderful plan for that little girl. Kare gives me updates all the time and know that there are people here in Canada praying and believing with you.

Rose said...

you.are.pregnant.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hooray for miracles :)

so, since you said you have a lot of time now...maube you
could write a blog entry about this...
was it prayer? or faith? or above all else Gods will? cause that's something i'm SO struggling with. i have an illness, have had it for a looong time. years. i pray. i plead. i have faith. i desire & long for health, but... nothing. I desire God more than health, though.
since you seem to be 'on the other side' a bit now, because you got your heart's desire... do you have any insight/wisdom?

i'm praying for your little princess and for you post-surgery... incredibly happy for you.

Katie Hood said...

DEFINITELY adding you to my list of people to be praying for. You are so right, everything is going to be OK! God is totally in control. Your blog is really speaking to me in my situation right now. Thanks for posting and speaking from your heart! Say hi to Mel for me if you ever see her these days... :)

Katie

{{F O U N D F R E E I N H I M}} said...

praise god for your baby. i will be praying for your sweet daughter. keep up the faith,
your sister from america,

Laura Anne said...

Jill, blessings upon you and the little girl growing inside of you.

I love what you have on your wall - and yes. It is true. You have already come through so much with God right there with you.

And yes, of course I will pray. Thank you for your honesty, and being so willing to share your heart.

Michael Wenham said...

Thank you for sharing your news. We'll pray. Bless all of you! God who calls you is faithful, and HE WILL DO IT.

Karen Alarcón said...

Jill

Nothing is impossible with God

God has guided me through all my tough times and i know that whenever something crops up, He will be there for me and watching over me and sharing the burden with me. His name is above any other name and our faith in Him can move mountains.

I am praying for you and your family.
Your sister in Christ,
Karen

Emmeline McWilliams said...

Just a note from a blog-lurker.... Wanted you to know I'm praying for a beautifully healthy baby girl at just the right time! I'm expecting my first (a girl too!) in October. Pregnancy is such a crazy thing - what creativity and majesty there is in the crafting of a life. Praying that the Lord continues to minister to your heart where you are - and trusting that in His goodness, He will.

CeCe said...

Jill,
The first time I heard your testimony I felt an immediate connection to you, no I have not experienced an ounce of what you went through, it was though your incredible faith. God has truly blessed you as a strong, faithful woman, who is an encouragement to others. Your words often hit me right where I am at with things that I have been going through, and I am always encouraged. With that said, I am more than happy to hear the news of your pregnancy, and of course my prayers for a healthy and happy baby girl. Keep trusting in the Lord and He will truly make your path straight, the journey thus far has made you the warrior daughter God has called you to be.
Many blessings to your growing family.

Rebecca said...

"So holy spirit, you who fill, all and all, come and fill me, Holy Spirit come hold me together," (Laura Hackett)You shared her music a few months back, the day after I heard some possible bad news on my pregnancy. Her lyrics spoke to my soul and lifted me up in so many ways. I am almost due with a completely healthy little girl. I can't wait to hear about your precious daughter's perfect and ordained arrival! Praying peace and joy for you.
"What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?"

Cherie Baker Vann said...

HOLY COW! I read your latest before I read this one... tears... and then the same sense of victory you felt. And thank God for modern medicine!! I know if we knew each other we'd be friends! I so appreciate your honesty :) And you have our prayers!! God is so good, and again, what a lucky girlie to have you as her momma! Cherie

AJ said...

I found your blog about one month ago, the week before I found it my mum was diagnosed with cancer - I have read your blog from start to finish, love your style of writing and faith - so real, so honest.

19 days after my mum was dagnosed she passed away, so quick and way to soon. Thank you for writing... your raw-ness has helped me so much the past month.

THANK YOU!

anina said...

I think CeCe's comment summed it all up for me. Your testimony/ies are such a blessing to me. Yes, your incredible faith is such an encouragement, I bet, not just for me and CeCe, but many others who read your blog, strangers from all over the world.

In every season, we have a reason to worship, and our God is bigger than all our trials, hurts, and worries. I know He will see you through. In Jesus' name!

I will be praying for you and your family! PRAISE GOD FOR HE IS SO GOOD TO US!

Grace said...

This made my day, and made my eyes start to tear.

I kept thinking how inspirational you are, your honesty points so beautifully to Jesus; His goodness and that regardless of circumstance He is good and on this journey with us, whatever the landscape, and He is trustworthy.

He is good, full stop.

I heard someone pray today and something they said stuck with me,

You are God and Your record is good with us.

And reading your post I was reminded of that, and a hymn that's been on my heart of late,

Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him
How I’ve proved Him o’er and o’er
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus
O for grace to trust Him more

Thank you for posting this. And about your amazing friends and husband, how beautiful the Church is. People doing life together in community.

Love you Jilly and thanks for being wonderful amazing you. God bless, keep and cause His face to shine upon you, your beautiful Southern hospitality waving girl and hubby.

Love Grace.

Karin said...

Jill, it has been a few months since I've checked on your blogs, and I am just so thrilled to read you are expecting a little girl. You have been in my prayers, and you will continue to be in my prayers, that now that the surgery is done, your little girl will stay where she is supposed to until full term, and may God grant you peace and wisdom on this journey. I myself am now holding a beautiful baby boy in my arms, and all I can say is God is good, all the time. Take care and get lots of rest - in spite of moving.. Nothing is more important than your little girl; the rest is just stuff. Blessings, Karin

[susan] said...

dear Jill,
we don't know each other for sure but we share same experience. My baby Jessica was born in term but I only had her for 5 days. She had difficulties in breathing since born.. i never heard her cried :)

Me and my husband are now waiting for good news too. Reading your struggles and stories, I feel blessed.

Jill, God will not give hard things all the time, or else we will be left feeling bad and discouraged. He is God, but more than that, He is a Father.. I am praying so your baby girl will be born in perfect condition, i am praying for you and your husband to experience the moment when you actually shout for joy..

God bless you!

中文Python论坛 said...

Amazing!
I am praying for you and your family.
May god bless you!

Franchesca said...

aaah Jill u are so inspiring my word and u are so strong and resilient!!!! I am so praying that ur baby comes at the right time!!!! wow u have a beautiful heart and reading ur posts is so gripping!!!!! wow i dnt knw what so say but i will be praying for u wonderful woman of God!!!!!!