Sunday, August 15, 2010

i can feel it.

Change... It's past, present and future.

I can see it as I think about the last year of our lives...
I can feel it right now stirring in my heart...
I am full of expectation for what the future is going to hold, as it takes its hold on whatever part of our lives that it is meant to.

I don't fear it...as a matter of fact...I love it. It always costs something, and always brings best out of everything that I am...well... eventually. ha! Sometimes that's a process that takes a lot longer than I would like. Sometimes its messy... sometimes its not pretty... but somehow... I know its worth it.

The obvious change is upon me as our little girl is growing bit by bit. I know that every day is a miracle and I'm so thankful for every moment that my little girl stays in my tummy...

Just wanted to do a quick post and share this photo. 22 wks today & counting.



OH!
{{and tell you that i LOVE your comments. and i will definitely be addressing some of them specifically soon. }}

xxxx

9 comments:

Rose said...

I love it when your blog pops up in my rss google reader... :)
Yay for 22 weeks! Glad all is going well. Love the pic, so cute.
Change... is good. Always good. I don't always anticipate it (I'm a scaredy cat), but with our Abba, it's always for the better.
I've been praying for your little girl!

Caroline said...

Hey Jill,

Since you said you love comments, I've decided to leave a love word for you today. I've been following your blog for a really long time, and often wanted to comment, but to be honest felt completely lost for words to explain how moving your story and posts are. Every time I see you've started blogging again I'm excited to see what you have to say and what your news is.

I think you are so brave to have fostered Haylee, with the possibility of her going back to her father, and having to go through the sensation of loss again, in a totally different way to Max. Your courage and attitude are so Godly and full of integrity. She will have been so blessed to be with you for this time.

I'm thrilled for you guys that you are expecting again! How wonderful!! I was really excited to read that news - and can't imagine how terrifying it was to find out that you might head into another premature labour. Your honesty is immensely helpful, and your choice to take your thoughts captive is so brave. I find it so hard to take my thoughts captive at the best of times.

On a personal note, I always find time difficult (missing people, times in the past, how things used to be, feeling a strong sense of nostalgia like the weight of my memories might crush me...yes a little melodramatic) and one of the verses I always come back to is Psalm 31:14-15

But I trust in you, O Lord;
I say, 'You are my God.'
MY TIMES ARE IN YOUR HANDS.

I wanted to post it here, because it seems apt for your situation, and is one of the most comforting and powerful verses.

I am sorry this is sooo long, and sounds like I know you even though I don't! You have had a real impact on me and my faith and I wanted to let you know. You are often on my heart and I will keep you and your family in my prayers. Your times are in His hands.

With love, Calli :-)

Evangeline. said...

JILL!
Your testimony has blessed me beyond words! I am so grateful for your transparency over the past few years and even more grateful to Jesus for the sweet little love nugget growing inside of you! Know that you and your family will be constantly uplifted before God's merciful throne in prayer.
Peace and Blessings,
Eva

natmueller said...

Hello Beautiful Jill,

Just wanted you to know ever since I left Sydney about 6 months ago, I've been praying that you both would be blessed and graced with a healthy baby(even though you don't knoe me :)...I won't stop praying either. She will grow up and call you blessed...Prov.31.
xx Natalie

encounteringhim said...

What a gorgeous photo. Praying with you that your little girl stays in your tum right where she belongs until it is time to meet the world.

Romans 12:12 "Be joyful in hope...."

I totally wait with joyful expectancy in the hope of the good, pleasing and perfect will of the Father your family. LOVE xx

Cherie Baker Vann said...

BIGGEST CONGRATS!! Even though we don't know each other, I feel so happy for you and for this part of your journey! So exciting! What a lucky little girl :) Looking forward to more posts!

kimricosays said...

change brings challenges but if you embrace them it will only lead to much growth.

what an exciting time for you!!
congrats, i am sure it will be a beauty of a little girl just like her momma :)

Amanda said...

Hi Jill,

Congrats on your pregnancy! Praying for your precious baby girl in your tummy, and for the cute lil' bubba that is Haley. I love your testimony, and even though so much pain was there, it shows that our God is indeed faithful to His children who love and seek Him.

p.s. I like to think that your little girl was waving to her big brother in heaven! :)

judy.paula said...

Hey, so happy to see your girl growing!!! even we don't know each other personally... read your words before & now, plus your 'newest heaven's gift' ...
has been quite blessing! and also a piece of learning of hope, faith...
i hope awesome weeks ahead!
and everything will just get better & better!
much love for you+family!
xoxox
[p.s.= from so far away...brazil!:)]