{Looking to the Future}

Sometimes when the present is seemingly overwhelming all we can do is look to the future. I'm still in this place where the days aren't very easy and understanding fully is so far from my head, where there's not answers, and trusting God costs my heart and yet there is peace that really does surpass all my understanding. I'm not really sure if its just the hurt in my heart burying down deep in these months and my heart really grieving the loss... or grieving it in a different way. Its crazy how life really does go on, and while everyone else has moved on i'm still in this place... to me it hasn't been that long since i held max in my arms and its been ages to everyone else. It sort of feels as though i've been singing a song over and over for months on end.... but i'm looking toward the future... because there is such a great hope... 

"See! The winter is past, the rains are over and gone. Flowers appear on the earth; the season of singing has come, the cooing of doves is heard in our land. The fig tree forms its early fruit, the blossoming vines spread their fragrance. Arise, come my darling; my beautiful one, come with me. " Song of Songs 2:11-13